My History Lesson

History has a way of repeating it self! I have heard that before but it was not until recently that I experienced that for my self.

I never settle for second place! Never! Someone once put me in second place once and I dropped that person my my life like if they were a hot pan burning my skin! I promised my self that I would never put my self in a situation where I would let someone demean me like that. Never would I ever let that happen again, I was in first place or no place!

Until history repeated it self and some how I let someone put me in the lowest place of all! I felt so cheap, so unwanted, so secondary, so worthless, so disposable, so ordinary, SO REPLACEABLE! So mediocre, so lame, so like garbage, so useless, so plain, so rejected, such a loser, so low, so crappy, like shit! So used up, so empty, so hallow, so meaningless, so invisible, so like a beggar, like dirt, like a reject, like an idiot, like a fool, so taken advantage of......... the list goes on and on I guess I show have known better!!!

As if I don't have value, as if I am not worthy of first place! As if I can't do better! Well all those days are over! I have more worth then...well I'm just priceless.

But never again! Never Again! Never!